some nights

sometimes there are those nights,
overwhelmed with sorrow, with internal fights,
give you perspective from another sight,
sometimes, a couple of flights, from a higher height,
perhaps life unexpectedly- like a flickering light,
will turn off, forever.

i am eager

i am eager to learn more; of you Lord
i am eager to grow more; to become more like You Jesus
i am eager to worship you; as you are the one and only God
i am eager, to experience you even more Lord, to feel your presence Lord, to bow to you Lord
i am eager to love you, more and more, everyday of my life.
Amen

i cant

stop feeling bitter feelings of being replaced and ---
i wish i hadn't met you but i feel the opposite also
bittersweet...

hey..

hey jeh...although many stuff has happened i just wanted you to know ill be there for you always, no matter how far we have drifted my feelings havent changed, i still love you and care for you
-its bittersweet that i wont be the one you'd go to but i just wanted to say that

that time at TC..during worship and i was actually singing my heart out even though i knew i couldnt but at that time, i broke down crying at the end of worship- because God touched my heart, i knew it when i was singing, the lyrics i saw, God's love is never ending and never stopping...reminisce...

so upset, so tonight I'm a damn pussy reminiscing the past and tearing up the hell is wrong with me

so mad

but u dont give a shit
im honestly the most pathetic shit in the world right now
i wont even lie i sometimes want ur attention
i want to regain our good friendship-like before
but obviously instead of regaining
you replaced me
with
them

and its funny
because i predicted this, and even told you before
And you ... just...make...me so upset and speechless