hey..

hey jeh...although many stuff has happened i just wanted you to know ill be there for you always, no matter how far we have drifted my feelings havent changed, i still love you and care for you
-its bittersweet that i wont be the one you'd go to but i just wanted to say that

that time at TC..during worship and i was actually singing my heart out even though i knew i couldnt but at that time, i broke down crying at the end of worship- because God touched my heart, i knew it when i was singing, the lyrics i saw, God's love is never ending and never stopping...reminisce...

so upset, so tonight I'm a damn pussy reminiscing the past and tearing up the hell is wrong with me

so mad

but u dont give a shit
im honestly the most pathetic shit in the world right now
i wont even lie i sometimes want ur attention
i want to regain our good friendship-like before
but obviously instead of regaining
you replaced me
with
them

and its funny
because i predicted this, and even told you before
And you ... just...make...me so upset and speechless

liar

siblings? jeh/sailoh ? you said you'd be there when i needed you, what happen to everything you told me before, you care for me? you love me as a little bro? if this was true, why did you never show it?
its always one sided- for every.single.feeling.i.feel
i miss you- obviously you dont
i care for you - you dont even show interest
i love you - you cant even look at me in the eye or call my by my name ??

frusturating

so so frustrating.. i cant handle this anymore
i have no one , not one single person that knows me, who i am
who can i trust?
everyone leaves in the end
promises are never kept
you words- emptiness

Wow

you can't even say my name, just "him" and you won't even try to mend a broken friendship . we sit in the same room, and you just say ... nothing at all ?

wow

we once considered eachother family...
now we are barely acquaintances?
what was i to you