how affectionate you are for him;than for me

how saddening, you said i was at least a little brother to you but you treat me no more than a acquaintance now. but for him; unlike to me; you start conversations, you care for him, he's on your mind always unlike you were to me. these feelings i have inside, jealousy? its only love and hate at the same time, yes...? please get it out me i do not want to feel like this anymore it hurts, as you are only sitting a few steps away it feels like i am so far, it hurts to feel like this.